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thelegion2017-10-12 07:34 pm
the_civilian) wrote in thelegion2017-10-12 07:34 pm
Team Bonding, AMA
[ Tadashi is reclining in a bed in medical, wearing the beatific smile of the enlightened and the well and truly stoned. ]
I love biology. Well, no, I'm enthusiastic about biology, I don't love it. I love programming and engineering and my family and helping people. Not in that order. Maybe in that order in regards to science. Except programming and engineering are the tools I use to help people, but I do love them too.
[ He stares off into space for a moment, then shakes himself and focuses back on the camera again. ]
But, you know, the thing about biology that's so cool is that we don't understand it all the way. Sometimes biological interactions happen unexpectedly. Like, these painkillers. I don't have an example of them to show you; they're already in my system and the medical staff won't give me more of them because they make me really loopy. Which is cool, because it's not an allergic reaction or a result of a miscalculated dose, it's just a reaction that happens sometimes to some people. Which is cool! Even almost a thousand years in the future of an alternate universe -- which has seriously weird rules, oh my god you guys I wish I loved biology and philosophy and physics more so I could study how weird this place is, I could write so many papers -- people still don't really know how our bodies work and why they react to certain things the way they do. Reality is amazing and I am so happy it exists!
[ He beams at the camera, but his smile eventually fades into confusion. Then he gasps in apparent surprise. ]
Oh yeah! Anyway, I'm super bored right now and I can't concentrate enough to read anything longer than a few sentences. And I've kind of been focused on dealing with my own stuff and not lighting things on fire when I shouldn't to get to know people, so I was thinking I should get off my ass and do that. Metaphorically, not literally, because the medical staff has confined to this bed until I metabolize the painkillers.
I was thinking we could do a...thingy. That thing people sometimes-- AMA! Ask Me Anything, that thing! We could do that, but just for Legionnaires. Not that I don't love the staffers here, I do, but I was thinking it could be a team bonding thing and some people here are more private than others. But I'd need one of the scary computer ladies to lock it down for me, because I can't figure out how to do that right now.
[ His eyes widen suddenly. ]
I'm sorry, I didn't mean that like "scary computers who are women", that would be rude, I meant it like "scary women who are good with computers". Computer programming has a long history of ignoring the contributions of the women who are it's backbone, and we have a lot of women here who area really good at what they do and they deserve to be afforded all the respect due to them as people and as badasses. The patriarchy sucks like the vacuum abhorred by nature.
...I think this got away from me. What was I talking about?
I love biology. Well, no, I'm enthusiastic about biology, I don't love it. I love programming and engineering and my family and helping people. Not in that order. Maybe in that order in regards to science. Except programming and engineering are the tools I use to help people, but I do love them too.
[ He stares off into space for a moment, then shakes himself and focuses back on the camera again. ]
But, you know, the thing about biology that's so cool is that we don't understand it all the way. Sometimes biological interactions happen unexpectedly. Like, these painkillers. I don't have an example of them to show you; they're already in my system and the medical staff won't give me more of them because they make me really loopy. Which is cool, because it's not an allergic reaction or a result of a miscalculated dose, it's just a reaction that happens sometimes to some people. Which is cool! Even almost a thousand years in the future of an alternate universe -- which has seriously weird rules, oh my god you guys I wish I loved biology and philosophy and physics more so I could study how weird this place is, I could write so many papers -- people still don't really know how our bodies work and why they react to certain things the way they do. Reality is amazing and I am so happy it exists!
[ He beams at the camera, but his smile eventually fades into confusion. Then he gasps in apparent surprise. ]
Oh yeah! Anyway, I'm super bored right now and I can't concentrate enough to read anything longer than a few sentences. And I've kind of been focused on dealing with my own stuff and not lighting things on fire when I shouldn't to get to know people, so I was thinking I should get off my ass and do that. Metaphorically, not literally, because the medical staff has confined to this bed until I metabolize the painkillers.
I was thinking we could do a...thingy. That thing people sometimes-- AMA! Ask Me Anything, that thing! We could do that, but just for Legionnaires. Not that I don't love the staffers here, I do, but I was thinking it could be a team bonding thing and some people here are more private than others. But I'd need one of the scary computer ladies to lock it down for me, because I can't figure out how to do that right now.
[ His eyes widen suddenly. ]
I'm sorry, I didn't mean that like "scary computers who are women", that would be rude, I meant it like "scary women who are good with computers". Computer programming has a long history of ignoring the contributions of the women who are it's backbone, and we have a lot of women here who area really good at what they do and they deserve to be afforded all the respect due to them as people and as badasses. The patriarchy sucks like the vacuum abhorred by nature.
...I think this got away from me. What was I talking about?
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[Buuuuut those thoughts can turn dark in a real hurry, and she has other things on her mind.]
Really, I don't know what to expect. How do I know this...thing I have with Dipper is real? Or how do I find out if it's not real? I mean, it definitely feels real, but how do I know? Will this even last? What do I have to do to make it last? How will I even know if I want that, or if he wants that?
[Everything Pidge has ever heard of relationships make them sound vague and nebulous and volatile. In other words, the total opposite of math. ]
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Well, for one, they never go the way you think they will. That's kind of a given.
[What's the best way to explain this to a teenager with (probably) limited experience...]
Look, you're still at the beginning of your relationship with Dipper. You're not going to have answers to all of those questions right away, and some of those questions don't even have answers. For now, it looks like you're both happy, and you're trying to get to know each other better, and you're going to have to decide whether that's real enough for you, or what real even means to you, because that's different for everyone.
What I can tell you is that you can't make it last. You can't force a relationship - once you start thinking about it in those terms, it's already over. You can work on it - and every relationship is going to take work, regardless of who it's with - but you can't force it.
Everything else...comes with time. There's no way to know right away, so there's no use in worrying about it yet. Just enjoy where you are for now.