He's alive, Gwen. You still have him. I know life sucks right now, but it does get better as long as you don't give up on making it better. And trust me, as someone who's been on your end of things more time than I can count, right now? The way you're acting? That's what giving up looks like.

I'd highly suggest talking to Doctor Ry'kerr. And getting something to eat. Low blood sugar does not help.