[Holding Yuuri while he cries like he's falling apart is one of the worst things Victor has ever had to do -- not the act of comforting Yuuri of course, never that, but not being able to do anything else. There's nothing he can do to fix this for Yuuri, nothing he can do to make it better besides make him cry and then hold him while he does it. It doesn't feel like it's enough.]
[Makkachin whines and paws at Yuuri, then at Victor when that doesn't seem to work. Victor shushes him and Makkachin lays down on the bed beside them with a soft 'boof' of discontent, which Victor completely empathizes with.]
[He's not like Yuuri, he's already won all the medals he's ever going to win. He's won enough that he got bored with winning and decided to try something new. And he has almost everyone he'd really miss right here with him now. It's not fair that Yuuri has to go through this almost alone.]
[He's been thinking about what he needs to do to be a better coach to Yuuri, but if Yuuri is putting that aside, maybe just for now but maybe entirely, where does that leave him? Where does that leave them? He asked Yuuri months ago what he wanted him to be, and 'just be Victor' was an answer that made sense at the time, but who is Victor to Yuuri if Victor isn't his coach?]
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[Makkachin whines and paws at Yuuri, then at Victor when that doesn't seem to work. Victor shushes him and Makkachin lays down on the bed beside them with a soft 'boof' of discontent, which Victor completely empathizes with.]
[He's not like Yuuri, he's already won all the medals he's ever going to win. He's won enough that he got bored with winning and decided to try something new. And he has almost everyone he'd really miss right here with him now. It's not fair that Yuuri has to go through this almost alone.]
[He's been thinking about what he needs to do to be a better coach to Yuuri, but if Yuuri is putting that aside, maybe just for now but maybe entirely, where does that leave him? Where does that leave them? He asked Yuuri months ago what he wanted him to be, and 'just be Victor' was an answer that made sense at the time, but who is Victor to Yuuri if Victor isn't his coach?]