It's how you stay sane when it comes to these big, reality-bendy, cosmic to-dos. Trust me, there's some things out there that even while you're doing what has to be done, you're learning things you never wanted to know -- sometimes things that nobody was meant to know.

And what keeps you sane is those things always staying insane. Never letting 'em become normal in your head. Because then you can still enjoy all the normal things without all that being a big ol' shadow they're trapped underneath.

[He spent a lot of his life Doing the Job and while he was doing the job he hated learning some things, hated being yanked around by big cosmic whatsits. He spent a lot of time wishing he could live a life in ignorance. And even though he couldn't, even though he had to face it all, it helped to never let go of that tiny bit of "wtf." He never wanted to look out on a life filled with nightmare terrors from beyond time and space and think all that was a normal thing to deal with. He always wanted it to be a thing he wished he didn't know about.]