I really wish I had an answer to that. Everything that happened to him only happened because of me, and I nearly killed him for it.
[He was ready to do it. He wanted to, and he might never know for sure whether or not he would have pulled that trigger without her getting in the way, but there's this horrible certainty knotting in the pit of his stomach. This feeling that he'd have done it without so much as blinking. That the only reason he didn't is because she took the choice out of his hands.
[He sighs, scratching at the back of his head.]
I know there's nothing I can do to change things, so there's no point in worrying about it, but ... I don't know how to feel good about myself after that.
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I really wish I had an answer to that. Everything that happened to him only happened because of me, and I nearly killed him for it.
[He was ready to do it. He wanted to, and he might never know for sure whether or not he would have pulled that trigger without her getting in the way, but there's this horrible certainty knotting in the pit of his stomach. This feeling that he'd have done it without so much as blinking. That the only reason he didn't is because she took the choice out of his hands.
[He sighs, scratching at the back of his head.]
I know there's nothing I can do to change things, so there's no point in worrying about it, but ... I don't know how to feel good about myself after that.