[ He's not looking at the holographic shapes so much as he's looking through them (easier when you're down a working eye) to the water beyond. It's warm here, like always. A little muggy. A bit of paradise that he'd always kinda hoped to retire to and never...really got the wherewithal to try for after going AWOL.
There were ways but it just never happened. Too much running, too much scraping by with just enough to keep ahead but never enough to be comfortable.
A subtle tension winds out of his shoulders when she strokes his hair, what strings he's got left holding him up cut entirely. There are words, he's sure, but finding the right ones are difficult. How do you talk about your own death? How do you explain that you don't understand that this is real with certainty 100% of the time? ]
Well. Now you know why I need this to be the real deal. Cuz...if I'm going around the bend again- I'm probably gonna go completely crazy. and if I'm gonna sign on to maybe die, again-
[ Like once wasn't enough. Like that's how his luck runs, because it does. ]
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[ He's not looking at the holographic shapes so much as he's looking through them (easier when you're down a working eye) to the water beyond. It's warm here, like always. A little muggy. A bit of paradise that he'd always kinda hoped to retire to and never...really got the wherewithal to try for after going AWOL.
There were ways but it just never happened. Too much running, too much scraping by with just enough to keep ahead but never enough to be comfortable.
A subtle tension winds out of his shoulders when she strokes his hair, what strings he's got left holding him up cut entirely. There are words, he's sure, but finding the right ones are difficult. How do you talk about your own death? How do you explain that you don't understand that this is real with certainty 100% of the time? ]
Well. Now you know why I need this to be the real deal. Cuz...if I'm going around the bend again- I'm probably gonna go completely crazy. and if I'm gonna sign on to maybe die, again-
[ Like once wasn't enough. Like that's how his luck runs, because it does. ]
I need it to mean something.